So why take things for granted? Being selfish, and greedy?
I always, always tell myself everyday to be nice to people, treat everyone like I wanna be treated, try not to go to places like H&M because I know I would want something once I see them!
YES I have s problem but who doesn't?lol when I said greedy I meant buying so many expensive things and eating anything you want, whenever you want. That kind of attitude, which won't take you anywhere but selfishness.
Sometimes I think to myself, like randomly, what if I didn't meet this person or if this didnt happen to me what would have changed me.
I'm gonna say a lot of things would have changed. If I didn't grow up in Ohio what kind of person would I be now? And I always say that, yea? I grew up with an amazing family, a wonderful mother who knows what to say when I really need her/needed and a father who works so hard to save money and support our family. I might have been the same.
Yea? Your probably like so does everyone else?
No because every family has their own ways of raising kids, how they take care of the house, their views, everything that you know comes from your parent's influence and other things where you catch your Friend's, tv, Internet influences you too but mainly how your parents raised you.
Wait.. Hiroko what are you talking about?
I'm saying that when it comes to making any decisions do you think about what your parents told you or what you learned from your parents?
Here are my list of things you can try:
1 Stop and really think what your doing before you make that decision.
There might have been times in your life that made incredibly wrong decisions.
For me, I used to think that it would haunt me for the rest of my life. I've came to the point where I lost myself in myself, and felt empty most of the time. I hated everything about me everything that I was. And I knew it was my fault, it was my decisions that made me regret the choices I made.
Its what I like to call "The Walls of Regret"
Where it can keep building up until you collapse and don't know where you are or where you've been going.
I was completely out of it. I used to hate myself for a long time and thought about running away from my problems but I knew I couldn't because I didn't wanna lose my hope
So
2. Don't give up and have the will to live a better life.
I still don't understand why I made those decisions that I decided to make. I did tell myself not to give up back then I thought, but for what?
3. Don't question yourself, because your probably not gonna have all these answers any time soon or even ever!
I kept praying a lot and praying helped but not enough to get back on my feet.
If I were to look at myself in the past I would tell her to get up and get your life straight and make better decisions. That I can do better than this.
4. Pray even if your not religious, or have thoughts to consider and make sure to think about what you can do.
5. Stop and think of who you are now. Where is your standard
Eventually in time I realized I need to stop, just stop everything I'm doing. Look at myself in the mirror. And I didn't like the way I appeared. Someone who's not doing her best, given up, doing whatever she feels, not looking up, not as bright as she was before.
6. "You were young" won't cut it because you can make the same mistakes in any age.
7. Understand your consequences
I did blame myself, get over it, move on, change my life plans. Don't look whats behind you, look what's ahead of you. where there's greater problems but with great plans ahead of you. Change the way you look at your mistakes, it won't feel so bad as before.
I also met the love of my life and I'm always surprised to know that he saw right in me, who I really was but wasn't able to show that part of me to anyone..just yet ;)
But Im glad I was able to overcome my mistakes and is a lot happier now. With great friends, families, good workplace, and an amazing boyfriend who's been with me for almost 2 years now:)
And that's how I was able to handle my past. And I hope you'll read my message and try some of the things I mentioned. Love yourself for who you are and you'll learn to love others.
