Dear Heavenly Father

You have given me so many tasks and tests. I have failed you so many times but you never gave up on me.
I am so thankful for You Lord giving me this life and I am so glad I got to know you
It was so difficult for me to do this
But I never gave up because Your love is stronger than anything in the universe!
Your love is what changed me and made me this way

I love who I am and You have shown me the paths I should take

I feel you near me and even if your not I know you are watching me from Heaven

I love you God for the rest of my life and you are my motivation to keep living my life.
That I have a reason to be here on this earth, even when I feel all alone and no one is around me. I didn't want to give up

I love you so much and I'll be praying for others for their health and safety

Amen

April 27th

Went to ikebukro with karina :)
She's my amazing friend :D

Had fun! Ate at a mexican restaurant called El Torito :)

Came home and now I'm going to go buy my gold membership card for Xbox live

I also need to go out for a run even if it's raining

Work

It's thursday but it feels like a friday!

Im gonna go home and hopefully see my friends online :D

And I need alot of sleep lol
I'm like really tired but I wanna play Xbox live so bad!!! :D

I need to go buy that live membership tomorrow :)

My friend's last day

I'm so upset that she's leaving :(

But we had a good time and great talks

It's almost here

To tell my family goodbye

I can't believe it's coming so soon

My dad is leaving on May 8th
My mom and my brother is leaving June 28th

I just have to be strong

May

I don't want may to come

My dad is leaving on may 8th to Alabama

And my mom and my brother is leaving on June 28th which is pretty soon

I hate it so much
Moving around
It would be pretty depressing to live in an empty house

I dont know if I should go just do I don't feel alone

I mean not that I'm absolutely able to go to NY or OH university but still I'm giving it a try

I don't want my family to leave

April 21st, 2012

Went to Hiroshi's house yesterday :)

We just spent a mellow day :)

BQ

It was fun today especially with the wonderful fooood and getting on the swings :D

We Came As Romans

That is where we came back where our lives bridged off
We will take the path we should of taken all along
This distance becomes greater to your mind

I love this song because it's alot like how my life went. I always felt like I've made mistakes knowing that it might take me nowhere but regretting things I have
I've felt things and seen things you wouldn't wanna see. I've felt alone

But I know my life changed and moved on from all the terrible things I went through these last few years

I know it doesn't make you any less worthy just because you make mistakes. If you believe your heart and know that's what you had to do, then you do it and if those choices took you somewhere you didn't want to or wish you didn't then that's just it. You just gotta move on and make better decisions and make sure you don't make the same mistakes.

Dear God

I'm sorry I've been such a letdown
I want to show you that I can change
I need to change
I want to be a Christian again

But I need to know where I should go and what I should do Lord

I can't do this alone

I need you Jesus.

I am truly sorry for who I became
I'm sorry for not being what you want me to be
For all these years I have lied and betrayed you

I'm so sorry Father I hope you can forgive me

Game night at my friend's house

It was fun :)

Work

I had my first student today
It was alright, she seemed like she really enjoyed talking to me!

I enjoyed working with her and the key is to keep the conversation goin :)
And make sure the conversation concentrates on the student
It would be easier to talk about if they're about them

I don't realllly need to focus on grammar because that's something they can do on their own time
And ask ME to help not force my students to learn it all :)

And if there was something they dont know then I would ask her what you want to say and I'll translate them :)

She was about my mon's age and she really wanted to let me know about what she wanted to say! I could tell because she showed that she really tried!

And before I left to go to work I won't shopping with my college friends and they're on their spring break for the month until may :)

I have the 12th off this week hopefully i can see my boyfriend but probably not lol

tomorrow I'll be working with another different student so im excited for that:)

Now I'm on my way home and I'm really hungry :P

Sorry

I didn't update lately

I'm watching YouTube and this video about this girl who's really high from getting her wisdom teeth out

It's so funny haha

And I finally graduated (I hope...)
This goodbye party on Thursday the 5th was amazing and I cried a lot! But out of happiness :)

And my boyfriend and I went on our first trip together away from Tokyo and I absolutely loved it, had an amazin time